Here He Is!

"My tears have been my food day and night, while all day long people say to me, 'Where is your God?'" - Psalm 42:3

"Raise your voice loudly. Raise it, do not be afraid! Say... 'Here is your God.'" - Isaiah 40:9b

The dark will try to tell you that God is not near. One of the worst things about depression is how it tries to isolate you...not just from people, but also from God by making you feel like He is far away.

The dark is lying. God is here...right with you, right within reach. He has not left, He has not turned away, He has not forgotten you.

When I walked through my depression, one of the questions I continually wept-prayed (yes, that should be a word) was "Where are You?!" The darkness that surrounded my mind and heart made it incredibly difficult to know that God was near. Because if He is, why is it so dark? Why so much pain and hurt? How can He be near me when I feel like I'm drowning?

But He was. He never left my side. Not for an instant. Not even when I doubted Him. And when it got too dark to breathe, He was the breath in my lungs for that moment. When it got too dark to see, He was the light.

Where is my God? Here He is! Right here! Right where I need Him to be.

The thing I have learned most in my journey through the pain is this: where I am right now is where God is. He's not miles ahead, looking back with disappointment at what's taking me so long to get myself together and catch up. He was never waiting for me to do something or try something or believe something before He came to me. He was already there. Before I knew it. Before I needed it. And He still is. Each moment. Every day.

So I can raise my voice now. I can raise it loud. I can not be afraid as I look fear in the face and say what is true. I can say boldly, "Here is my God."

And so can you. Don't let the darkness tell you He isn't close. He is with you. He's not afraid of the dark and He'll be with you as you learn that you don't have to be either.

Maybe it's time we decided to tell the dark that we're not alone. Maybe we need to say it out loud: "My God is here." Maybe we need to hear ourselves say it until it sinks into every fiber of our being, until it's more real than the dark.

Will you raise your voice with me? Loudly and unafraid? "Here He is!! Right here! My God walks beside me. My God is here with me. My God will not leave me. Here He is!! And He is here to stay!" ❤🌸

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  1. BridgetAugust 24, 2018 at 3:09 AM

    Psalm 27:1 “The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” Not fear, not worry, not anything— because NOTHING can separate us from the Love of the Father! HE IS HERE!

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