An Imperfect Blog Post

There was something I felt like God was showing me the other day, something that would have a real impact on me and my journey. I thought I should write about it and share what I had learned, because after all, that is the purpose of this blog.

I sat down to do just that, thinking this something had the elements for a powerfully real blog post. I picked up my pen to write and...nothing. Then when my words did come, they were jumbled. And my thoughts kept straying from my main point.

Now, my pre-programmed thought patterns instantly want to shout "failure" in my face. "Look at you!" they scream. "You can't even write down what you're feeling! These are important words that need to be said and you're wasting time! Pathetic! Useless!"

But instead of listening to those lies, I'm choosing to learn something. Because if you learn something, even if it feels insignificantly small, then you're making progress.

So here's this...I'll talk some truth to me. You're welcome to listen.

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Not everything you learn has to become a blog post. Maybe this thing God's showing you is just for you right now. Maybe one day you'll have the words to describe it in the right way, but that doesn't have to be today. Not writing it out does not lessen the importance of it to YOU right NOW. Hold it in your heart and chew on it some more.

Forgive yourself for not having the right words. It's better when God takes over and writes through you than when you try to force the words out on your own. Don't hold the pen so tight.

Breathe. You have permission to take a break. You don't always have to consciously be trying to make sense out of life. That's just you striving for better things instead of walking in grace.

Celebrate the small things, not just the big. You woke up with peace in your heart this morning - don't cloud that by wishing for what isn't. That's enough for today. Embrace it and all the small victories it contains.

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Thank you for reading my imperfect blog post that turned into a conversation with myself! I read a quote not long ago that said "Speak the truth in love, even to yourself." I think that's what I needed to do here. I'm always more focused on the big, eye-opening moments and forgetting to breathe, give myself time, and not undervalue the small things. Maybe the smallest steps in the right direction are actually the bravest, because they're the ones more likely to go unseen. ❤🌸

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