Taking The First Small Step

It's never been in my nature to talk about myself. I'm an introvert; I internalize everything and rarely share what I feel even with my closest friends. I'm Olympic level good at hiding my feelings.

That being said, the fact that I created this blog is truly astonishing to me. It's also frightening. Allowing my heart to be seen on this level is by far the most uncomfortable, out of character thing I've ever done.

Yesterday I introduced the blog on my Instagram account, and immediately felt doubt, self-consciousness, and fear begin to creep in. What if no one reads my posts? What if no one likes it? What if I have no business doing this? I'm not Ann Voskamp and never will be, so what do I think I'm doing? What do I have to say that could matter? ...What if I fail?

Later, I opened my devotional from Christine Caine's book Unshakeable and read this: "I had to overcome my fear to fulfill my calling - and so will you. ...We're not directed to go as long as or if or after Jesus removes all danger and takes away all our fear. We go in spite of and even if and anyway. He says simply 'Go. Go with me.' Jesus has been saying this to me all my life. And every time, He gives me the courage to look fear in the face and dare to go where He is calling me to go - knowing He is with me."

So I'm taking a step (okay, it's more like a terrifying leap for me) of faith. I'm going to trust God's leading. I'm going to stretch the gifts He's given me and grow into them. I'm going to write this even if it scares me (and it does!). I'm going to take this journey, even though I can't see what the results will be.

Sometimes I think it's not really about where we're eventually going in life anyway...it's more about the journey and how we let God shape us as we walk to wherever He has us going. The same is true for this blog. I don't have to see the future of it; all I need to do is take the first small step in writing it, and then follow all the steps that come after, trusting God all the way.

If you've taken the time to read along so far, thank you! If you've subscribed, thank you! I hope we learn some things together, one small step at a time.  


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  1. BridgetMay 20, 2018 at 5:41 PM

    Seriously proud of you! You’re doing the what God has called you to do, and it’s going to be a fun journey (after your white-knuckling has come to a more normal color 😉)... oh and I’m tweeting this: “Sometimes I think it's not really about where we're eventually going in life anyway...it's more about the journey and how we let God shape us as we walk to wherever He has us going.”

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